I have a lot on my mind so I let it out here. Music is one of the only reliable things I have; it has the ability to pull me out of drowning waters, keep the world still and break apart all of the fibers in my body. I agree with Roger Harvey, how we're "losing just as much as we're finding, constantly." I just hope I'm losing the negative instead of losing my mind. I fuck up and I'm not at all what I strive to be. As unhappy as I am, I need to find balance. Whether I overcome these obstacles in the end is the hard part - the strength to do so VS. the drive to beat them. "You will have full contentment by summer’s end."
shoutout out to all my buddies who have shitty dads or no dads at all this father’s day, you turned out just great regardless, you can’t choose your family and you don’t deserve any negativity from them,and you don’t deserve backlash or guilt-tripping for cutting them out of your life if that’s what you need/ed to do and i love you all
They will want to know who you are, where you come from, what your family was like.
They will look through your photographs and read all of your poems. They will come over for dinner and speak to your mother about how their curiosity has taught them things of use to her. They will ask you to rant when you’re angry and cry when you’re hurt.
They will ask what that raised eyebrow meant. They will want to know your favorite food, your favorite color, your favorite person. They will ask why.
They will buy that camera you liked, pay attention to that band you love in case there’s a show near by, they will get you the sweater you smiled at once. They’ll learn to cook your favorite meals.
The curious people don’t settle for your shell, they want the insides.
They want what makes you heavy, what makes you uneasy, what makes you scream
for joy, and anger, and heartbreak.
Their skin will turn into pages
that you learn to pour out your entire being in.
Don’t fall in love with the curious one.
They won’t let a sigh go unexplained.
They will want to know what they did
Exactly what they did to make you love them.
Year, month, week, day.
“What time was it? What did I say? What did I do?
How did you feel?”
Don’t fall in love with a curious one because I’ve been there.
They will unbutton your shirt
and read every scar
every mark
every curve.
They will dissect your every limb, every organ, every thought, every being
then walk back home and eat their dinner and never return your calls.
You will never be their lifelong expedition. The heart is a mystery only for so long.
There is no ache like loving a curious one
who chases every falling star and never catching one.
Who comes and sees and conquers
and leaves.
I’ve fallen in love with a curious one.
Maybe one day he will take the train back home
and be curious enough to read one last message from me
carved on a seat.
as effortlessly as you’ve moved me for years.
Take drugs to expand your mind not escape it
One of the best things today was being able to define/describe serfdom to my friend.
gettingcrazywiththecheezewhiz:
In the winter I sleep with twelve blankets on.
In the summer I turn on a fan then sleep with twelve blankets on.
